LOST!!!!

GOD, I am very lost now.... I wanted to go back to youth and sun service very much but there are always having a great fear in me for going back because i am super scared of rejection....God I really dun want to start all over again, each time i think about this matter, i will burst into tears and I am very lost.... God, I am drowning in the deep sea and I can see neither land nor anything I can hold on to......Let this year be the year i grow spiritually and mature and sensitive to the people around me.... Be wise in relating with people and know aware of their behaviour..... God, I am very very disappointed and dont knw hw to overcome nw.... How I am super super super lost...lol COME and RESCUE ME!!!!